Gue sekarang merasa seperti orang yang menunggu pesawat yang delay di airport. Tanpa kejelasan, bimbang, dan harus siap dengan segala kemungkinan buruk yang akan terjadi seperti pembatalan pesawat. Menunggu di waiting room, lo dapat melihat pesawat yang bisa membawa lo pergi ke tempat tujuan, tapi karena berbagai kendala akhirnya harus terjadi delay dan bahkan pembatalan. Gue terbiasa menunggu pesawat, bahkan gue terbiasa dengan ketidakjelasan ketika gue harus menjadi penumpang dengan status waiting list dan harus bolak-balik ke check-in counter. Gue terbiasa menunggu temen-temen gue, menunggu dosen dan menunggu yang lainnya. Tapi untuk hal ini, gue ga akan menunggu terlalu lama, cukup sampai bulan Mei saja gue akan menunggu. Dan jika di bulan Mei pesawat gue juga tak kunjung siap, sepertinya gue harus memilih penerbangan lain dengan tujuan yang sama.
Gue merasa seperti samsak yang akan menerima pukulan keras dari seorang petinju. Bayangkan aja samsak hidup, digantung, dan ketika petinju itu datang dia memukul dengan keras, meninggalkan rasa sakit di samsak ini.
Seperti lagu dari Lady Antebellum yang sering gue denger sekarang. Lirik yang dalam dan memang menggambarkan keadaan gue sekarang.
Picture perfect memories. Scattered all around the floor. Reaching for the phone 'cause I can't fight it anymore
And I wonder if I Ever cross your mind. For me it happens all the time.
It's a quarter after one, I'm all alone and I need you now. Said I wouldn't call but I've lost all control and I need you now.
And I don't know how I can do without. I just need you now.
Another shot of whiskey, can't stop looking at the door. Wishing you'd come sweeping in the way you did before.
And I wonder if I ever cross your mind. For me it happens all the time.
It's a quarter after one, I'm a little drunk and I need you now.
Said I wouldn't call, but I've lost all control and I need you now.
And I don't know how I can do without. I just need you now.
Guess I'd rather hurt, than feel nothing at all.
It's a quarter after one, I'm all alone and I need you now.
And I said I wouldn't call, but I'm a little drunk and I need you now.
And I don't know how, I can do without. I just need you now. I just need you now.
Oh baby, I need you now
And I wonder if I Ever cross your mind. For me it happens all the time.
It's a quarter after one, I'm all alone and I need you now. Said I wouldn't call but I've lost all control and I need you now.
And I don't know how I can do without. I just need you now.
Another shot of whiskey, can't stop looking at the door. Wishing you'd come sweeping in the way you did before.
And I wonder if I ever cross your mind. For me it happens all the time.
It's a quarter after one, I'm a little drunk and I need you now.
Said I wouldn't call, but I've lost all control and I need you now.
And I don't know how I can do without. I just need you now.
Guess I'd rather hurt, than feel nothing at all.
It's a quarter after one, I'm all alone and I need you now.
And I said I wouldn't call, but I'm a little drunk and I need you now.
And I don't know how, I can do without. I just need you now. I just need you now.
Oh baby, I need you now
